The sudden, unexpected loss of someone to suicide can leave survivors searching for answers. Following my dad’s passing, I frantically sought out clues or signs that he was ok, wanting to know that he reached a better place and was now relieved of his emotional pain. Even more, I wanted to know I was somehow still on his mind and that we would maintain an eternal connection.
After losing someone to death of any kind, I think it’s natural to ...
Understanding that My Dad Didn’t Want to Die—He Wanted to End His Pain
The fact that my Dad chose to end his life was one of the hardest concepts for me to grasp after his death. After talking with my counselor and reading books/articles about suicide, I've taken away that when my Dad decided considered suicide, it wasn't because he did not want to live anymore, it was because he wanted to end his pain.
For months, I couldn't even wrap my head around that idea. How could I when I didn't know my Dad was ...
Eradicating “I’d Kill Myself” Innuendos
Prior to losing my father to suicide, it was not terribly uncommon for me to dish out the phrase, “I’d kill myself” in conversation (at the thought of sitting through a particularly long meeting) or make the gun-to-head gesture while telling a story about something annoying. Similarly, I didn’t think twice when those around me did the same. That’s because the notion of suicide was so far from my reality that these innuendos felt perfectly ...
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